To me in 20 yrs, Where are you?? Where are you physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally? I can not wait to see how much you have grown. I am typing this with fidgeting fingers. I can not contain how excited I am to see how much you have come into yourself. You are 20 right now and it has been a rough couple of years. Just recently you have been going through a lot of manic and depressive episodes. I know all of these emotions are scary and confusing but you will get through it. You trusted in the universe. I hope you have found your voice, because right now I feel like I’m in a never ending cycle of letting myself down. Every time I try explain to people my feelings and the degree I feel them to no one understands which makes me feel worse. I’m also realizing right now that it’s okay to not be understood, or at least trying to find a balance. You have always been a loner so the inevitable never getting married doesn’t scare me, I just hope you’re happy no matter what. You